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Admittedly, this is one of the most difficult songs that I have ever felt I had to write. Briefly, I am adopted and I've known my entire life. At age eighteen, I embarked on a quest to find my identity, to find my birth parents. Within a week I had found them on my own. I met my bio-mom at a concert that I was doing (I'd sent her tickets) and she told me where she thought I'd find my bio-dad. While we were reminiscing on day, she mentioned that on my birthday every year, she would make me a cake, put candles on it, and make a wish that I was well. My mom and I were amazing friends for many years till one day I asked her if she still loved me. Her response? "No Sean. You don't need my love. You have God's love and that's all you need." It appeared that back then she had not found God, but found religion and it ripped my world apart because there was no justification for it and I was being abandoned again. I was angry at both her and God and it was only recently that I've been able to let that comment go and not hear it in my head every few days. This song had to be written as part of that 'letting go' process.

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